The “I” Thought Dissolved – Sahaja Samadhi Explained In this episode I share the precise shift when the root “I” thought dissolved. During a Shaktipat intensive with Jan Esmann in 2020, I was shown the exact mechanism: a conduit running from the spiritual heart up to the intellect. The “I” thought (the root sense of being a separate someone) normally travels up this tube. In the vision, that conduit had been severed. The “I” had nowhere left to go and fell back into the heart, dissolving completely. This is the movement into what is traditionally called Sahaja Samadhi — the natural state. I also connect this experience with the clear teachings of Ramana Maharshi, who repeatedly pointed to the “I”-thought as the root of the mind and said that when its source is found, the “I” itself vanishes. In this video I describe: • The vision of the heart, the chimney, and the “whack-a-mole” “I” thought • How the conduit from heart to intellect was cut • The difference between Unity Consciousness and the dissolving of the “I” • What remains when the root sense of “I” is gone • How this matches Ramana’s teaching on Self-enquiry and Sahaja Samadhi This is one of the quietest yet most decisive shifts on the path. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Self-enquiry, Samadhi, and the unfolding of consciousness. #SahajaSamadhi #IThought #RamanaMaharshi

I Merged With the Mind of God – The Cyan Blue Supreme Being In this episode I share one of the most beautiful and absolute experiences of the entire spiritual journey — the direct merger with the Mind of God. This happened the day after the entry into the Void (Brahman), while the Supramental Force was still pulling me into deep Samadhi daily. What opened was a vast ocean of shimmering cyan-blue consciousness. I did not observe it. I became it. It was pure intelligence, pure love, and pure Being — the unmanifest Supreme Being. What I later recognised as the Mind of God. In this video I describe: • What led up to the experience • Exactly how the cyan-blue ocean felt • The difference between the Void and this state • Why it remains one of the most perfect experiences of the path • How it changed my understanding of God-realisation This is a direct account of merging with the Supreme Being. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Samadhi, Brahman, and the unfolding of consciousness. #MindOfGod #SupremeBeing #SpiritualAwakening #Brahman #samadhi 0:00 Introduction 1:15 The experience before the merger 2:10 Opening into cyan-blue consciousness 3:26 What the experience felt like 4:55 How it differed from the void 5:43 Returning to the body 5:49 Why the experience matters 6:30 The merger’s place in the wider spiritual journey 7:10 Closing thoughts

Nothing Exists There – My Direct Experience of the Void (Brahman) In this episode I share one of the most absolute and confronting experiences of the entire spiritual journey — the direct entry into the Void, pure Brahman. This happened during the intense period of daily Samadhi brought by the Supramental Force. One evening the force took me beyond everything. What remained was pure nothingness. No self. No body. No world. No thoughts. No story. Only a faint, dim awareness — and even that could not be said to belong to anyone. I describe: • The fear that arose just before the shift • What the complete absence of existence actually felt like • How the weeks of forced Samadhi prepared the ground • What it was like coming back into the body afterwards • How this experience relates to the later merger with the Mind of God This is not a philosophical talk about Brahman. This is the lived encounter with the reality prior to all creation. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Samadhi, Kundalini, and the unfolding of consciousness. (00:00) Opening the episode (00:32) Why this experience emerged from weeks of daily samadhi (01:01) Multiple samadhi states and the effect on ordinary identity (02:10) The evening meditation when the void first arrived (02:38) The wave of fear and the sense that nothing would return (03:31) Surrendering at the edge of absolute blackness (04:04) What the void felt like with no self, world, or time (05:06) Recognizing the experience as Brahman beyond form (06:08) Returning after 90 minutes and the fear of re-emergence (06:32) How ongoing samadhis prepared the system for this event (07:18) What remains after touching absolute nothingness (08:14) The humbling aftermath and the role of daily samadhi

In this episode I share the intense period when the Supramental Force (SAT Force) began descending and repeatedly pulled me into deep Samadhi — multiple times every day, often for 60–90 minutes at a time. This was completely different from Kundalini or Shaktipat. The force came from above, had its own intelligence, and did not negotiate. It would take me at work, on the sofa with the children, or during formal meditation. There was no choice but to surrender. I describe: • How the force first appeared after the intensive with Sat Shree • The two distinct types of Samadhi it produced (Savikalpa and Nirvikalpa) • What it actually felt like when it entered the system • How daily life had to rearrange itself around these absorptions • The deeper purpose of this force on the path This was one of the most powerful and beautiful phases of the entire journey. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Kundalini, Samadhi, and the unfolding of consciousness. 00:00 – Intro 00:38 – What the supramental force is 01:31 – Part 1: Understanding the supramental force 01:58 – Sri Aurobindo’s vision of supermind 03:22 – Knowledge by identity and truth consciousness 03:51 – Transforming mind, life, and body 04:52 – The Sat: The force of pure being 05:21 – Part 2: Why open to the supramental force? 05:50 – From awakening to deeper transformation 06:40 – Self-realization, unity, and transformation 07:05 – Part 3: When does it appear on the spiritual path? 07:31 – Gareth’s awakening, Shakti, and Kundalini timeline 08:21 – Surrender and readiness for the force 08:48 – Part 4: Gareth’s experience of the descent 09:18 – How the force entered daily life 09:28 – Who is the supramental force for? 10:00 – Closing reflections and invitation to share experiences #Samadhi #Supramental #SpiritualAwakening